My shrink says...

I used to make fun of people who sought therapy. Now, I am involved in so many different therapy sessions, I have to take back that line of thinking. One can never have too much therapy. My son attends counseling weekly and every other week we all attend something called multifamily group at our local mental health agency. It's where families get together to support one another. Every family is dealing with either schizophrenia or bi-polar disorder. I attended my first session last week. We each had to commit to something we wanted to change. My commitment was creating a schedule and fitting time for ME in that schedule. I plan on working on that tonight and over the weekend before our next meeting next week.

I also attend individual therapy and sometimes attend therapy sessions with my boyfriend. I started my individual sessions three weeks ago. I haven't reaped any serious benefits yet other than the fact I feel better when I leave. Martha, my therapist has helped me to make certain choices in my life. I always overwhelm myself with burdens. I have one major issuethat I won't discuss in much detail except to say it is family related. I started to implement our plan this week and the other party isn't exactly responding with kindness. I have to learn how to stand up for myself. I have a REALLY had time accomplishing that task.

So..I see my therapist tomorrow and I am excited. I need that time alone with someone who doesn't really know me personally. I need advice without feelings involved. I need a place to vent where I feel safe. My life is so busy. I feel overwhelmed and stressed a lot of the time. Yet, I have those moments where life feels really good. I feel proud and accomplished about my makeup line. I dropped off product at my local consignment store today, made contact with another consignment store, and started advertising my free makeup classes on Craigslist. I need to get really organized and start putting an agenda together for sales and marketing campaigns.

I hope this weekend I can relax. The week days are full of appointments, errands, housework, cooking, cleaning, hardly any sleep, and lots of laundry. I need to start walking. I keep saying I want to but I just don't. I've nose dived off my no sugar thingy a couple of times this week. I have an unused yoga mat next to my closet that I bought to workout. How time goes by so quick!

I hope my website picks up more traffic and I get some more sales. I am going to a friends workplace next week to sell some eyeshadow and make her a custom foundation. I am excited about that. I hope it turns into more referrals. Harlan is back in school and doing sort of ok. It's really hard to gauge and he's under a lot of stress with peers and explaining his reason for being out of school for so long. Spring break is right around the corner and so is registration for my last undergrad class. Dreaded biology! I have so much to do in order to get registered for summer graduate classes. I have put off that process and need to start to get things moving.

In the meantime, I am getting by and trying my best to enjoy life.

Love,

Jenny